It is still Easter as the Gospel opens today. The disciples are huddled in a room behind locked doors fearing the Roman authorities who executed Jesus just three days ago. Suddenly, there he is, standing in the room with them, showing them his wounds, speaking to them, breathing on them, proving he has risen and is somehow physically alive! Until now Mary of Magdala is the only one who has seen him. Now they all do, all except Thomas, that is. He isn’t there. Because he needs the same tangible experience of the risen Jesus the others have had, he will forever be known as “doubting Thomas.” It’s interesting no one seems to recognize the other disciples also needed ‘proof,’ or that Jesus appeared to all of them for precisely that reason! Thomas wasn’t satisfied with simply going along with what others reported, even though they were presumably his circle of friends. He needed to see for himself and to ground his faith in personal experience. When you think about it, he isn’t asking for anything unusual. It is our personal experience of Spirit, of Divine energy, of Mystery, that is the source of our spiritual lives. So when Jesus returns a week later to speak with Thomas he doesn’t criticize. He simply says “Touch me.” “Believe what your hands tell you, and what you see.” Jesus respects Thomas’ need for a relational, numinous experience.
Our physical senses are doorways to faith. This is why we have sacraments. When mysterious claims are made it is only natural to want evidence. We can’t always trust what we are told, nor should we. What we can trust is what we ourselves experience as we live into the deepest questions of our lives. Those of you around my age may remember bumper stickers in the 60’s and 70’s that advised us to “Question Authority.” In the West we’ve come a long way in that department, to the point that almost every iteration of authority is either suspect or actively refuted. How do we discern what’s true? Who and what do we trust? How can we build a just and caring society, the reign of God, if we trust no one and, at the same time, can’t trust ourselves or our own experience? The Spirit within us calls us home, requiring that we be faithful to our inner truth. Call this conscience. Call it integrity. We know what it is. Thomas directs our attention there. (more…)